I m having my break and I am so bored...

I back with my love of Nana~~ Shin rocks!!!!!!!

P.S Such a short post...

I should continue since I have finished with Nana for now. I found Nana about 3 years ago and I never got to finish it. So, I m glad I am done with the anime and manga.

I think I understand the feelings of Hachi. The feeling of loneliness. And because of tat she falls in love easily which made her seem like an easy girl. She may be not strong emotionally but the experiences did made her grow. I still hate Takumi for cheating on her for whatever stupid reasons, I think he cares more for Reina than Hachi which gets to me... *Angry!* In episode 26, I really understand Hachi. Your best friend cares about all other things than you, it hurts deep down even though you know that it's jus being stupid and selfish.

Me too, I always have a problem with control towards bestie and most of the time, happy endings never occur therefore I think I m too scare of hurting that I have already forgotten the feelings of loving a best friend because that me is so terrifying. A totally control freak, always hoping time would jus stop and we could be together forever, I want her to always think about me jus like how I think about her. I think tat's why I cannot be a true friend to anyone becos I onli think about myself and not my friends. Just a selfish and spoilt person. I think I am a sicko becos I truly think tat a bestie would be much more valuable than a boyfriend. Haiz...

I really wanna be like Nana who makes Ren wears a lock on his neck which means he is her's, I wanna do jus the same thing to all my best friends. Yes, it's freaky but I think even that would not be enough for me to feel they are there like I wan them to. This ugly self I wish no one would ever find out. Smiling is jus a protection for this ugly truth. Like what Ren said to Nana even if I die, I will pull you to hell with me. I think I will do the same thing too. One hurtful matter would be tat in my life I always met people who said I will call back later therefore I would stay near the phone hoping that the next ring would be fr tat person but they never call back eventually, the feelings of excitement that they will call back decreased and true enough, the less hope you have in stuff, the lesser the pain will be when it didn happens.

I hope the author quickly gets well soon. It's too hard waiting for manga chapters. Why all manga artists falling ill? T_T People who get sick easily should really take care of themselves even more...

I know 'Reina' songs are on bitter love(BGR) but I think this song really describe my feelings towards my best friends:

Take my hand
It’s because the two of us are fragile and imperfect
That we'll stay holding hands forever

Starless night, Though complaints may cross my lips
I want to believe in your warmth
Endless love, I can love even my faults
Because you are my shining star

Starless night, I won’t look back on the shadow of my past
I want to feel your warmth
Tears falling down; even when I'm lost
I won't let go of your hand

Even if I m lost, I DON wan to let go of your hand but you always pulled your hand away fr me.......