Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Two more days to my last paper!!!!! I have absolutely NO confidence in this exam. Not kidding here.
I heck care le la. Maybe when next year de results come out, people who noe me might be attending my funeral cos I might kill myself, I swear I am not kidding.
I want to go to the teddy bear show on tis sun! It's free and the bears look so kawaii!!! This year theme is A Bear Perspective of the world! Haha! I must go even if it's on my own! XD I will try to take lots of photos with my lousy handphone de.... XD
人 群中 哭著 你只想變成透明的顏色
你再也不會夢 或痛 或心動了
你已經決定了 你已經決定了
你 靜靜 忍著 緊緊把昨天在拳心握著
而回憶越是甜 就是 越傷人了
越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深淺淺 的刀割
你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼
這 世界 笑了 於是妳合群的一起笑了
當生存是規則 不是 你的選擇
於是妳 含著眼淚 飄飄盪盪 跌跌撞撞 的走著
你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼
你不是真正的快樂 你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了 然後才後悔著
你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢
能不能就讓 悲傷全部 結束在此刻
重新開始活著
I like this song very much. I can relate to the whole song. I laughed and smiled because deep down, I am upset and unhappy. But I still smiled because even if I cried, no one would pity me and I don need anyone to pity me. Last week, after my maths paper, I was with some new friends, then one of them suddenly said to me, if it hurts to be happy then don be, nobody is going to blame you. *smile* I didn know what she meant at first and I thought she is making fun of me. Then, I heard this song. Yup, she's right, I am not truly happy. I am jus pretending to be happy. Actually, I have lock all my feelings inside of me. I am just a empty shell.
I can never be truly happy until I reborn again, maybe.....
It's me, jus me...
@ 5:44:00 PM
