♥ I don wanna make u mine, i jus wan u to need me, lyk hw I need you..... ♥

Suddenly, the feeling of loneliness jus came rushing up, it's so depressing tat i am shaking right now. I really hate the feeling of being alone, especially at night, so when i can't sleep, i will sms someone and hope they are not asleep too. I know i am being selfish. I am not a person who always rely on others for things, but i jus am so scared of this lonely feeling. I believe tat if i am left alone in this planet with nobody around, i would kill myself rather than contiuning living. Seriously, i will do tat. Many of my lonely nights, i have LW accompanying me and i am really thankful for it becos i don't know who else to turn to. Cos for me, an ugly gal, there's no guy willing to be my boyfriend even if there is, i think they are jus joking with me so i don't believe it. So, i always look for people whom are staying up late, tat way, i have someone to talk to. I really miss LW dey all, i miss the fun times we had. It's just so hard to throw away everything in a second. I am a human being with flesh and blood, i have feelings. They are all my precious friends, i always thought that i might die without them, die as in mentally la, and yes, i did die a little inside. When i know their true selves, i die even more inside. Why can't time stop at the time we are having fun and having no worries? I miss them. I hate them for treating me like this but deep down i miss them, every single one of them. i always hope to get at least a msg from them. That's why, even though, i lied and said i will change my number, i didn't becos i hope they would msg me. I am too naive, they are even happier without me, i am the one who's having all these sad emotions, i am the one who made myself suffer. I really don't want to see them again. So, when hei said she wanna invite her to her birthday party, i didn said anything even though i don wan to see her, becos i don wan to quarrel over these small things. I rather i am sad alone then making others sad too. I really hope someday these pain can go away. I am going to break down soon. When ever i think of them, i would cry, it feels like i am dumped by people i love. I don't know how long i can go on anymore.

It's me, jus me...
@ 12:21:00 AM

Ivy

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*Manga: 恋爱班长 (I've gt 1-2)
千金小姐新嫁娘(I've gt 1-7)
Switch Girl!! 指令变生(I've got 1-4)
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Skip beat♥[NC]
Ouran high school host club ♥[NC]
LOVE教程 ♥ [NC]
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